My Girls

I sometimes have a need to write and just clear my head of the little chaos that is currently weighing me down, I have 2 sounding boards and will reflect my thoughts and let me actually hear what I am saying.
When I have spoken to Regan or Candy, I come away with some of the mess and wandering philosophies boxed and stored in a system I am able to make sense of.

I am not the easiest person to live or work with, ask my ex-wife and I am sure she will oblige, I strive for perfection and the word "anal" has been raised on more than one occasion. I am however generous to the point of stupidity and loyal as a dog and expect nothing except a thank you in return.  My latest concern has been my girls, two beautiful loving individuals who are blossoming into young ladies and have a grip on my heart so tight I could cry just thinking of them.

Simon turns sixteen shortly, she is bundle of teenage energy, master of accents and baker of note. She has the potential for greatness and I pray for her to find the right person to share this with. Show her a cookbook or the cooking channel and she will sit under her blanket and absorb and make shopping lists of "essential" ingredients as she does.
Nicole is my baby and my fighter, she wears her emotions on her sleeve and is passionate about her decisions right or wrong. She has also challenged many of my grey areas of beliefs and ideas and shattered them beyond recognition. When she decided to date across the racial line, it was time for me to reconsider my comfort zones regarding my princesses, and when my girls sat with me and discussed it and we shared our ideas I felt truly blessed to have them as my girls.

As they have grown and their independence and personalities have become more evident, I have been able to open myself to a different view and outlook on life. One should never underestimate the many ways God will reach out to us and prompt us to question what is acceptable and what needs to be challenged and perhaps thrown out if it is unfounded.

So in short, thank you my girls for your input into my life and keeping me on my toes mentally and emotionally, Daddy loves you more than you can ever imagine. Our relationship has been one of the blessings from my divorce.

Nite all

Teenage Dating

I have been trained, brainwashed and coaxed into being a chauffeur for my teenage daughters first boyfriend.

Why?
Well, I delivered my daughter to a shopping centre, shook the hand of the young lad and watched him lead her away. 
Why was she smiling when she was walking away from Daddy?
Was she drugged?
How could be attracted to a human so fragile, the thought of handing over a priceless treasure without some rules seems irrational.

Here are the unmentioned rules:
You hurt her I break you into bite size chunks and make curry.
You cheat on her I will mount your head on a wall.
Touch her anywhere below the neck even accidentally and the ancient art of bloodletting will be re-introduced.

Whatever you do to her i have the privilege of doing to you.
I feel better already.

He was very polite and seems like a very nice young lad. Simon likes him. I am now an observer as she begins her journey into love, relationships and emotional experimentation. It is hard because I cannot protect her anymore, I have let her go and stand in the shadows anxiously watching and waiting.

Treat her well Sean




Nite All