What a day with my girls, never thought I would be one standing in the underwear section helping them making choices about matching lingerie. A year ago that would not have been possible and yet it wasn't awkward and didn't feel strange.
I found some old music and my treat for the month, 2 new pairs of underpants, sad perhaps but practicle. Girls had a blast, Simon got some books, a new big black bag and a cd, Nicole a poster, a new purse and a top I was assured by Simon was 'Ok Dad'.
Needless to say the girls were exhausted and collapsed on the couch and have been watching Vampire Diaries for the past 5 hours. They are chilled and having fun and I am blessed they want to spend time with me.
My friend who was so hurt yesterday is so much better today it is almost hard to believe, she is calmer and back in a place where she can think rationally and is feeling better.
I was fine till the evening and then I had the feeling I was bursting from my seams and needed to just let some steam off. Not possible tonight but hey, let's see what happens next week. Still processing it all and seeking opinions from good friends, any opinions please let me know. I want to go ona drinking spree for one night, let my hair down and forget about everything for a couple of hours, can any of you relate to this?
I feel that much has been taken from me, a lesson perhaps for my lust to seek and attain and collect, perhaps the removal and absence is my learning and part of my journey towards a new place, a new me and new beginnings. The unwinding and unravelling of the old is painful and difficult, it is the reversal and removal of habits that have been comfortable for many a year.
So I must retire as my meds begin to weave their web of medical magic.
Goodnight.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
When Friends Hurt
And so once again we welcome Friday, eat a little too much, watch too much tv, perhaps drink too much and so we begin the weekend.
When a friend is hurting, you feel so defenseless and unsure of the correct way to assist. Sometimes a hug or a shoulder is not appropriate and it has to be handled via a remote and this is so much more difficulty.
I really feel for you and pray you will find peace and understanding and that which you long for so desperately.
Two sick girls but so awesome to have them here.
Vampire Diaries and 4 episodes in one night, the girls are addicted, Simon had a tendency to curl up in a ball and close her eyes in parts! But they are as hooked as Hugh Hephner is to his little blue pills.
What is one of the difficulties that I really battle with in divorce is the fact that when children are involved, you still have so much interaction with the other party or your ex. You can't just end it and walk away.
I really miss Lucy at the moment and would love a friend to scratch behind the ears and on the belly and just hug, will have to be a dog as I doubt many females will do that.
Oh the merry paths we weave!
Farewell till next time.
When a friend is hurting, you feel so defenseless and unsure of the correct way to assist. Sometimes a hug or a shoulder is not appropriate and it has to be handled via a remote and this is so much more difficulty.
I really feel for you and pray you will find peace and understanding and that which you long for so desperately.
Two sick girls but so awesome to have them here.
Vampire Diaries and 4 episodes in one night, the girls are addicted, Simon had a tendency to curl up in a ball and close her eyes in parts! But they are as hooked as Hugh Hephner is to his little blue pills.
What is one of the difficulties that I really battle with in divorce is the fact that when children are involved, you still have so much interaction with the other party or your ex. You can't just end it and walk away.
I really miss Lucy at the moment and would love a friend to scratch behind the ears and on the belly and just hug, will have to be a dog as I doubt many females will do that.
Oh the merry paths we weave!
Farewell till next time.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Where the Heck is Friday
I was awake at 04h30 and working in the office from 06h00 and then it didn't stop.
Yesterday was frustrating and a long chat with a lawyer left me feel despondent, confused, angry and scared. You can't afford to get out of your situation but there is no system in place to assist you. Everyone wants your clothes off your back, your blood and your soul if they can negotiate that as well.
So my circle of friends jumped in to put it all in perspective and give me the good old tally ho. Thanks guys. It meant the world and knowing that I am not alone in this, prayer, encouragement and those hugs that just break all resistance.
And now today, it was a race against the clock and I got 3 missed calls from Nicole, just checking that I had not forgotten that it was my turn to collect them. We had such a laugh on the way home and had an old man in a car in front of us that kept rolling back towards us.
Nothing beats chatting to a friend when you've had a rough day, it is therapeutic and makes you feel better knowing that you have a 'people' out there who actually do care.
I miss my brother very much and would love to have him around, maybe one day.
I was blessed today by a friend who had my car cleaned and then filled the tank, bless you Mark you old dog. I really do enjoying driving her and with the addition of a radio again I am so cool I burp ice cubes.
I should arrange supper but I am tired and gravity Is wrestling with me and winning at the moment.
Goodnight
Yesterday was frustrating and a long chat with a lawyer left me feel despondent, confused, angry and scared. You can't afford to get out of your situation but there is no system in place to assist you. Everyone wants your clothes off your back, your blood and your soul if they can negotiate that as well.
So my circle of friends jumped in to put it all in perspective and give me the good old tally ho. Thanks guys. It meant the world and knowing that I am not alone in this, prayer, encouragement and those hugs that just break all resistance.
And now today, it was a race against the clock and I got 3 missed calls from Nicole, just checking that I had not forgotten that it was my turn to collect them. We had such a laugh on the way home and had an old man in a car in front of us that kept rolling back towards us.
Nothing beats chatting to a friend when you've had a rough day, it is therapeutic and makes you feel better knowing that you have a 'people' out there who actually do care.
I miss my brother very much and would love to have him around, maybe one day.
I was blessed today by a friend who had my car cleaned and then filled the tank, bless you Mark you old dog. I really do enjoying driving her and with the addition of a radio again I am so cool I burp ice cubes.
I should arrange supper but I am tired and gravity Is wrestling with me and winning at the moment.
Goodnight
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