Ever wondered what the hell you are doing?
Where am I heading and what am I getting myself into?
Why me, why not someone else and why now?
Life has an intriguing way of opening doors ever so slightly and letting just enough light through for us to see it. What we do is one of two things, one, we ignore it and tell ourselves it wasn't ever there. Or two, we take a deep breathe and head towards it irrespective of the consequences.
This determines the way we face life, love and heartache. We can confront it or ignore it and hope it simply fades away and nobody notices. In the past while I have had to confront many issues I would simply have laughed off before. I have had to look myself. And examine the naked man before me, no mean task as that much nudity should not be exposed all at once.
I didn't like what I saw and decided that I could learn from my mistakes and move ahead or wallow in self pity. I bathed in self pity for some time and it took a couple of really hard kicks to the butt to awaken me and begin the motion forward. It is definitely harder to move a resting object that to change the direction of one already in motion.
So I must move ahead and steer my ship into stormy waters and see what challenges await me.
Adventure? Sadness? Failure? Love? Purpose?
Time will tell.
Join me as my journeys heads off into the distant yonder.
Good nite.
dude, it's like you're reading my mind (or at least my blog! LOL) i hadn't read this post until right now, but i wrote about something similar just this morning.
ReplyDeletei'll admit, i, too, have wallowed, not in self-pity, but in fear. i was never like that before, but the end of my marriage... yeah, it did a number on me.
sounds like you're on a courageous journey, my friend. can't wait to read more about it. :)