Counselling with R and it was ok, all this honesty with emotions is extremely tiring, I seem to remember the days of boxing it all up as being a lot easier to deal with short term. It seems that the long term damage creeps out of the boardwalk like forgotten relatives after a lottery winning. So now we talk about it and do homework and face them all like they are embarrassed teenagers on their first date, a case of "howzit" and "wanna dance" or "what's your friends name" lol.
When it finally dawns on you that you no longer love someone, it does make it easier to deal with a whole emotional side of the "relationship" and finally move on to the next phase of your life. While there were feelings, guilt could so easily be thrown into the equation and somehow sway a 50/50 call where now it can be dealt with rationally and evaluated and a more honest approach can be adopted. Strange how we need to knock our heads repeatedly in some cases before we finally realise that it is time to move on.
Well it has come down to the fact that I have to sell the damn house, yes a little anger is involved in a situation that has snowballed and now looms in the background drawing ever closer. If the Auctioneers don't step in soon and make this a reality I shall have to use plan "B", only snag is that plan "B" has not done me the courtesy of revealing itself to me. So in the bank we trust and as we are all well aware this never usually ends well.
Have every intention of making a beefy red wine minestrone soup tomorrow night and have all the ingredients at my disposal, so tomorrow night or bright and breezy Saturday morning the pressure cooker will be whistling away. Home will be saturated with the aroma of all the combinations of flavours as they thicken and merge and become a winters meal worth killing for. Hope that wont be required ha ha.
I have a Germany flag flying on the window of my car in preparation for the FIFA World Cup and cant wait for the first game between South Africa and Mexico to kick off. My prediction SA 1 -3 Mexico.
And now time for a mug of hot chocolate and then bedtime.
Till tomorrow.
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